You say I love fighting right?
I’m defensive. At all times. With everyone. Except people I let in. Things changed for us. Atleast they did in my head. But you’re still stuck somewhere else.
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If you’re going to make stupid assumptions and if you’re going to fight on tiny little things like ‘phrasing’ a word correctly, then what exactly are you expecting?
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I have to make a conscious effort to not get angry. And if you keep poking me and aggravating me. And not having even a tiny bit of faith in me. And assuming the worst where I’m concerned.. what are you really expecting?
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I thought you were the kind of person who would never make issues out of stupid, tiny things. Especially if their consequences are this bad. I thought you understood situations. And I really did think you were the kind of person who’d let stupid things pass because you were smart like that and knew when it wasn’t bloody worth it.
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I think you like fighting and confrontation way more than I do.
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Just. Fucking. Perfect.
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In other news, I’d been wanting to go somewhere for more than a year. And my plan got cancelled last minute. Because my kitten is ugly. And because I clearly don’t understand other people’s priorities. And because I’m selfish and I think my own shit is more important. And because if someone tells you why they can’t go or why it’ll be hard, they aren’t “excuses”, they’re “reasons” and because I clearly dont understand why those reasons were so important – even though I do. Lol.
This is just too much.
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